Baju kurung

I bought a pair of baju kurung. This is my first time buying the traditional clothes of malay. I like the material of my new clothes and believed that I look nice after wearing it.

OK, please don't be misunderstand. I am not trying to promote the shop and the owner did not pay me for doing this. Maybe you feel curious why I bought baju kurung suddenly.... This is because I plan to wear it for an interview in a government department.

Very weird?

The officer who came to my university told us that we should wear formal clothing for the interview. For female, it is "strongly advised" to wear a baju kurung. At first, i don't see any problem. However, come to think of it, so can we wear a cheong sam or a sari instead?

I did not ask the officer at that time. Do not want to make it an issue. So I just kept quiet. THis is a typical "me". Obedient to the higher authority and kept silent when things are not right. Somehow, I believed that a different voice or opinion from the authority will end up with "bad ending".

In the baju kurung issue, i do not plan to make any comment on the thinking of the officer. Maybe he was just so used to see his female colleague wearing it. So he thought that baju kurung is formal clothes and working lady wear formal clothes. So working lady should wear baju kurung...

I was taught to obey to rules and authority since young. Most of the time I was considered to be a good student and a good citizen. The meaning of "good" here is I am very obedient. For example if they draw a circle and ask me to stay in that circle to become a good people, I will not even go near to the border. I will not dare to step out to get the things that I want.

However, this kind of obedient behaviour kept me safe and well for many many years. Although I do not get things that I wanted the most(scholarship, places in local university); at least I am lucky that there is some other 2nd and 3rd choice for me....

After reading , I realised that my silent and obedient behaviour are things which kept me still after all these years. The typical "me" who always have no opinion, kept quite and do not know when to get "angry" make me the person who I am today. I should not blame others...

Suddenly, I feel like a small kid again. Things that I thought is all right turns out to be not so "ok" in the end. There are many confusion and everything seems to be in grey. Graduation is just another new chapter of life. I begin to feel vagueness and wonder whether I am prepared for all the challenges in future....

A new beginning

Finally finish final exam...

Although still worry for the results, but most of the burden had suddenly dissapear!!!

Don't know how to describe the feeling right now.
It is like climbing up a mountain, after all the hardwork,
I am now only standing in a resting station,
A place to eat some energy bar, drink some water, slowing down the heart beat and prepare to start a new journey.

Looking forward to the new journey!!!
I do not know what are the new scenary I am going to see.
Whether there will be any snake in the bush?
Birds in the sky? colorful insects?
How is the peak going to look like?

This is like a turning point.
Many things will start to change from now.
I will have a new job, new boss, new friends, new colleagues.
Everything is so new.
Feel like the new first year student entering the " university of society "
There will be more "exam" to come,
Exam in any form...

A New beginning. A new world.
I am coming.